20060430
unconfident
just like the typical scorpio, he's sentimental, deep, emotional and dependable.
and just like the typical pisces, he's soulful, deep, understanding, dreamy and ponders about life's unanswered questions.
just when i thought a scorpio[slash]pisces match was heavenly enough, turns out that a pisces[slash]pisces match is even more divine.
OH DAMNIT.
everything i wanted, but maybe because she's much hotter, prettier, cuter, and the so-believed SOULMATE and THE ONE, so he left.
and i was so convinced that i was over the whole thing, before it just had to hit me in the face again. i would have cried if i could find the tears to. doesn't hurt, but makes me wanna go 'FUCK OFF', although not literally. =
hatehatehate. what an emo i've been, don't you all like this shit coming from a life of a 15-year-old aye. the juicy, cliche things you all like to hear. HANDS UP Y'ALL.
im on fire on my bio report.
20060427
Ecstasy (:
yesterday and today i'm made a happy child. :D
oh shit. oh shit oh shit oh shit ><" i speak too fast.
20060421
ooh that one lor, <3
nothing much today, just very sweaty, hot and smelly in PE; bored and sleepy in geography; and also got murdered by this china history documentary in history. had sports day, and was even more smelly and sticky and sweaty, but the best part of all was the cheerleading competition (:
GAMMA WON! WHOOOOO!!! GAMMA IS THE CHAMPS FOR THE CHEERLEADING COMPETITION! ZOMFG ALL OF THEM WERE SO HOT AND JENN, COCO, KRISLYN AND EASTINA DID A GREAT JOB! THE STRESS AND FATIGUE WAS ALL WORTH IT GIRLS! :D
*ahem* now i got that done, i wanna say that i'm really proud of Gamma, came in overall first runner up and champs for cheerleading, some feat there! (: the music was great, the stunts were well performed, the cheorography was good, and everyone was smiling! damn great job there (: i video-ed it down hoho.
and, i also video-ed that-one-lor, when he was performing the cheerlead for his house MWAHA X) he was really cute, doing that butt shake move, shaking it to the front, then back, then side to then lol. very stiff, but in a good way. made him look really cute and blur aye (: he can't dance that damn well but who cares, oooh good eye candy hahah. i thought that his house was pretty good also, had really cool outfits and hot girls too. their moves were soooo cute and spastic lah! XD best thing was he was standing on the side that was the closest to me bwaha XD ultimate cuteness i so want santa to stuff him down my christmas stocking for christmas! :3 oops. i think i am a bit too high XD
sigh. 1st base <3, from left, audience view (: how hopeless, silly and pathetic can i get. ima rewatch the video one more time tonight before i sleep! LMAO KIDDING.
hmm, i think i'm on my way to break free, i hope it's a good thing =1
20060419
uh.
so i screwed up both japanese tests, therefore i shall buy myself pencils to break when i have the time. and did i mention that i hate it when i pass up my application form for the immersion programme to the teacher and she says in a surprised tone, "huh? you want to apply?" and then gives me the you-totally-cannot-make-it look. i shall stop mourning about today's test T-T
and i decided against posting up mardi gras pics cause i'm just too lazy to do so.
oh ya, i went to look at my old house today, and i was mortified to see the windows being teared down, and the roof of the ultility hut ripped off. MY GAWD, the whole building is empty, and wires hang out from like everywhere. the building is dreary, wrecked, and void of life. i can still remember the times when i used to hand out at the big yard outside my house. now it's like, no one lives there anymore, and everyone has found somewhere else new. i don't know how to explain this or why am i feeling so emo over some old house, but just looking at it, comparing the times when you lived in it when it was er, authentic (?) and now it's nothing like it. honestly i do miss my house lots. after all, it was the house that He spent a long time looking for to drop me a package at 3am in the night/morning/whatever.
won't find me there anymore.
dad said, "give a few more days and this house will be reduced to debris and dust." WHY DID YOU HAVE TO REMIND ME.
rawr, i hate being all emo =1 I NEED TO GO DIG OUT SOME FUN FOR MY BORING LIFE, so goodbye.
20060417
thunderstorm approaching,
and i wonder how am i going to get my ass to bishan, cause i know an umbrella won't help.
ooh and i shared this little funny dream/fantasy of mine to kelly (: something about my half-prince charming HAHAHA.
beatrice hasn't sent me the pics of mardi gras to me yet, i shall bug her for it tomorrow i don't care! XD
on my good days, i am:
nice, sweet, crazy, loud, spontaneous, easy going, amusing, funny and a bit of a psycho.
on my normal days, i am:
dreamy, lazy, moody, irritable, laid back, tired, wierd, slow and deep in thoughts.
on my bad days, i am:
everything you don't like (:
today was a normal day. i got pretty down in the afternoon cause i got smack hard on the face with reality: that i am not fit for the ip programe neither am i a quality student that they're looking for. and no matter how hard i try i can't change my attitude. i get real tired of doing things i don't wanna do, really. looks like i gotta think of a way how can i continue my life for the next four years.
so looks like i gotta suck it up, and head to bishan for japanese lessons now. damn, heavy downpour coming =1
20060414
hmm, good friday.
and i still remember the highlight of yesterday's mardi gras. EASTINA & I put up a little evil, wicked scheme XD
@ the climbing popsicle stall
eastina: want to buy? :D *wink*
me: huh? don't want lah.
eastina: buy lah support the climbing stall leh!
me: whyyy? aiya don't want lahhh.. *(act) shy XD*
eastina: buyyyy! eh quick leh ask her to buy! *turns to xxxxxx who was mending the stall also and says*
xxxxxx: HUH? *blur look* ORH, AYE BUY LAH BUY LAH! ONE ONLY!
me: huhhhhh.. =\ *MWAHAHA WIN ALREADY LOH! YESSS XD*
eastina: buy lah, one only okay?
me: okay lorh x)
mwahaha, okay doesn't mean anything, but he was just good eye-candy HAHAHA. GO EASTINA I LOVE YOU! XD <3 didn't think our little trick would work mwahaha! okok i shaddap =X what a retard.
today i went out with THEM, (denise, bran, kun, br and jon) to cine for a movie. watched ice age 2 which was hilarious lol. supposed to meet at 11am but i woke up at 10.45am, so RUSHED LIKE MAD to orchard. turned out that i had to wait like one hour for the guys before they came. bunch of slow pokes lah. after the movie we sat down at kobayashi and ate a bit, and br showed me really spastic photos of kun YET AGAIN in his phone. he's always getting caught doing those gay stuff just because he was bored at that time XD
went to arcade to walk around a bit cause we were bored and we didn't know how to spend the time, and (HIGHLIGHT!) guess who we saw there? XD
me: OMG IS THAT WAIYEW?!
everyone: WHEREEEE?! OMG.
and all of us like totally SWOOPED up to him and started to screw up his aeroplane game lol. guess what, we also saw his *ahem*friend, TOTALLY SURPRISING. TALK ABOUT A REUNION HUH. we were all laughing our asses off, caught him red-handed already mwaha x) still can say why we all go out never call him LOL.
after that we got like pretty bored, went walking around here and there, with nothing to do in mind. so we went to wisma to meet two of kun's friends, whom two of us didn't really like LOL XD heard also from bran that the first time they met jon and TRIED to talk to him thinking he would be friendly, jon with his usual dao face told them 'SHUT UP LAH.'
then br, kun and his two friends went off to watch my ex school's band concert, while me, denise and bran went to far east plaza before sitting down to chat a bit at burger king's.
overall today was still pretty alright, but i wonder if it's really hard to do things if girls are tagging lol. it's not like we complain, basically everyone just goes, 'what you wanna do now?' 'ANYTHING, LOR.' XD
bah, i await for the day kun goes to dye his hair and when they are of legal age to get a tattoo.
on a sidenote, a reminder just for me: GET A BLOODY HAIRCUT SOON.
ON MARDI GRAS DAY,
me and julia headed to orchard to look for black lipstick after school ended lol. searched like 4 floors of far east plaza and still no black lipstick. besides that i even went on my own to bishan, other parts of orchard, tampines, bedok and almost anywhere i could think of to find it. i never knew black lipstick was so hard to find! oh well, anyway we ended up buying a silver lipstick instead, cause we thought that it was the next coolest thing after black lipstick. we also bought these fish net gloves to go with our mardi gras outfits heh XD
then me, julia and beatrice laughed ourselves mad in the mrt on the way home lol. seriously, we were talking about so many spastic things in the mrt it just made us laugh ourselves dry hoho x) then i went to julia's house to bathe and get changed, we wore black and white outfits, with the fish net glove and knee length socks to go with it. it was supposed to look goth or something NEAR to goth, but it kinda look punk instead. and the knee length socks made us look more like japanese girls than punks or goths haha. but still, everyone was like staring at us and it was kinda uneasy at first, then people thought that it was nice (:
used eastina's eyeliner to go with the silver lipstick later, and the make up looked hideous. i was looking like a living dead XD went around scaring jimmy lol. BUT IT'S LIKE ONCE IN A LIFETIME THAT I GET TO DRESS UP LIKE THAT! AND I LIKE (: hahaha lotsa people said that the look kinda just went well with everything, and my outfit looks like me and i managed to carry it off x) i thought it was going to look like a mess and totally hideous at first lol. bah, but it's just the make up.
at mardi gras, we stood around and watched the parade, the fire-eaters, then watched performance with the loud music and colourful lights, and brandon commented that it looked like a DISCO bwaha x) yup, he, kun and br came later, and managed to find bala and the other vs guys who were from the same class as them last year. i found them taking like this group photo lol! awww how sweet XD didn't know so many people in ta were from kun's class haha! like one whole big group of guys were all almost from vs lmao. but i regretted cause i didn't really manage to watch the modern dance, nor any live bands play. i so wanted to watch them jam! but oh well, the dances and performances on the stage itself was good enough, i watched my teachers doing a funky bollywood dance x) and they're soooo hot.
the event kinda ended off with mass dancing later, and beatrice, eastina and i took more photos lol. shall get them to send them to meeee! :D i came back home, and now i'm a good girl again (8 damn, i miss being funky, japanese and goth/punk-like T-T oh well, going out with THE CREW again tmr! (: ICE AGEEEE!!!
20060409
like, everyday thingamajigs?
@ mos burger with my girlfriends, and these are our wonderfully numbered orders!
MASS FRY EATING AT MACS WITH THE GIRLFRIENDS HAHA (:
at MINISTRY OF GAMMA house function. crap i didn't know my cam image size settings were fiddled with and the pic turned out so small. okay, it's not like you're supposed to see anything besides lights either XD
an amusing message my civics tutor wrote on the board, including the smiley face LOL
and i just felt like lying on the tables after school (:
once upon a time there lived a chair in the physics lab,
it was in a VERY pathetic state,
and along came eran who walked past and accidentally brushed past it, and it was reduced to this, IN SUPER SLOW MOTION, i kid you not. it was hilarious. talk about metamophorsis in slow mo XD
& with that i bid you byebye for now with lots of sugar and love (: <3
| You are a Black Coffee |
At your best, you are: low maintenance, friendly, and adaptable
At your worst, you are: cheap and angsty
You drink coffee when: you can get your hands on it
Your caffeine addiction level: high |
20060407
MINISTRY OF GAMMA, t'is how we groove
disco lights, music, & DANCE (:
that was all what the Ministry of Gamma was all about today (: i attended the Gamma House Function which turned out to be really cool! It was kinda like clubbing lol.
there were drinks at 'E BAR', which gave out drinks like mocktail, an adaptation of cocktail obviously because we aren't of legal age to drink yet lol, but still tasted good all the same (: ooh and there was a live rock band! presenting tjc's very own talents hehe. and i thought that the rock band was pretty good, they could play really great songs and hardcore rock i suppose. but it was all so deafening i thought i was going to go deaf while jumping to the music right in front of the band lol. but it was all so cool the live rock band! man now i have a fetish for live rock bands lol. they're really good, and i like the lead guitarist alot. he's really cool, doesn't seem to have much expressions or talk much, so mysterious haha. i call him the 'money guy' cause he wore a black tee with a dollar sign on it x) how cute haha. but he left early ):
besides the rock band which was one of the highlights of the function, there was also great music and lights. like those rotating coloured spot lights in the dark canteen, sometimes i couldn't really see well. best was when i danced with my classmates and kelly and went like totally crazy! everyone was just dancing to the beat, then trying to make fools out of ourselves by dancing this really spastic move! then we decided to grab this guy and surround him and dance lol. lucky guy, it's not everyday you get so many girls dancing around you lol, but it's all in the name of pure fun! soon i got really really high and song after song went by, hip hop, club hits, rock etc. the lights and loud music really made it feel like i was drugged or something hahaha.
and when the whole thing ended, everything was like back to normal. the times i was dancing to the music made it seem like a deja vu, i couldn't really remember anything clearly then. but all i knew was that i was screaming at the top of my voice, watching people breakdance/pole dance/dance their own thing, moving to the music and just having a blast!
after like weeks of stress, tonight i felt really refreshed when the whole thing ended, it's like i danced and jumped away all that's bothering me. (: I SO WANNA DO IT AGAIN! :D
feel alive; i definitely wanna try clubbing when i'm older (:
20060403
POW!
the greatest news has hit me in the head. for i have failed my chinese, and scored a single digit for maths which has now assured me a place in maths remedial. great, now i have to stay back in school for another day, for extra hours, like i'm not already exhausted, tired and busy enough with trying to pull through each day without dying before 6.30pm. ooh how i anticipate maths remedial,
NOT.
and as if mr lim hasn't already said, that alarm and panic bells should be already ringing, signifying that it's time i seriously start to pay more attentionin class, stop stoning, stop sleeping, stop being so lazy, and start working hard. well, my brain has been thinking exactly the opposite. not only i wasn't very surprised with my results, i wasn't disappointed either. i was like, COOL. maybe the warning bells in my head aren't really functioning. but it's okay, i know it'll be back functioning as normal, soon. soon = who knows when.
and i still have the cheek to think about hanging out and retailtherapy, screw me lol.
this is me and kelly, getting bored during a chinese orchestra concert so we decided to play with our tickets, and turn them into cigarettes, w00tz!
and this is kelly and me being the regular morons we are.
and i'd like to say that blogger makes the quality of my pictures look so fuglish. for gawd's sake, just sharpen those pixels lah! dammit.
20060402
FWAAHHHHH
HOW DO I WRITE AN ESSAY ON:
- WHAT KIND OF SOCIETY DO I THINK IS A SOCIETY THAT'S EASY TO LIVE IN?
- WHY WOULD IT BE EASY TO LIVE IN THAT SOCIETY?
- HOW WOULD I MAKE IT MORE EASIER TO LIVE IN THAT SOCIETY?
- WHAT ARE THE KEY THINGS THAT IS IN A SOCIETY THAT'S EASY TO LIVE IN?
ALL IN JAPANESE?!?!
like HELLOOO i'm not even interested in writing that in english and i'm supposed to write it in JAPANESE? see, this is why this essay has been overdued. i absolutely cannot make myself write anything about it, though i made an effort to wake up at like 8 plus today just to get started on it. i mean, even watching the beslan siege on discovery channel is much more interesting than writing this i'm serious!
and why the hell are they making me write this when they very well know what n00bz we are at japanese? i mean like hello? where's the usual 'what i did during the holidays' and 'what i want to be when i grow up' topics? I can barely scrape through that, though i can at least crap out something though i end up with a fail score but THIS?! HOLY. my limit already. i really do not want to complete this, at all.
i am so frustrated as long as this essay is not done, and i need retail therapy.
@ mos burger with my girlfriends, and these are our wonderfully numbered orders!
this is me and kelly, getting bored during a chinese orchestra concert so we decided to play with our tickets, and turn them into cigarettes, w00tz!
and this is kelly and me being the regular morons we are.